A better day for Logan

His teacher emailed me today to say that Logan had a better day. She gave him a bag of legos to play with when he felt scared and he was fine with that. He cried alittle in the afternoon saying he wanted to go home, but she said he got over it and was fine. She said he still has a hard time with transitions but they will work on that. She said to give him a pat on the back!!! So I am so happy that at least he is improving, even if it is alittle bit. I am going to try to set up a time to talk to the school counselor to see if I can get him an IEP. I'm hoping that they will see the need for it as well. So one day at a time................

Not a good day at school for Logan :(

Well Logan started off really good-he was so excited to get on the bus- and didn't cry or get upset at all. So I was on this high horse all day, then he came home. He was all smiles getting off the bus, and I asked him how school was-he said "Good-but I have to tell you something-I got sent up to the office because I was hitting someone". He said the kids were bothering him and he didn't want to talk to them and they kept talking to him so he hit them. His teacher called me too and said at times he was fine, but when she would talk to him he would scream, and he didn't want to interact with the other kids. I told her that this has always been his problem and that he really lags in his social skills. So she said she would have the school counselor observe him tomorrow and then set up some social skills training for him. She will email me every day to let me know how he did that day. He wants to go back tomorrow and was excited to ride the bus again-telling me that he didn't need me to walk him to his bus stop-he could do it all himself!! So this broke my heart again, but I kinda expected it. At least the teacher is recognizing that he needs help and is willing to work with me and him. I just hope this is what he needs-to have someone help him while in the environment that he has the most trouble with. I hate that he feels like everyone is against him and that he is a bad boy-in his words. I talked with him tonight about how to talk to kids and make friends and if he felt uncomfortable or scared to ask his teacher if he could be alone, and she will let him sit in the back of the class for awhile. I don't know what else to do-this is going to be a long rough year!

I bought him some balloons and a gift to show him how proud of him I was for getting through the first day of school!!!

Logan's First official day of Kindergarten.....

Oh it was not good.......He did okay when we first got there, posing for pictures and even getting kinda excited to go into the room. The teacher had them all do a scavenger hunt for things in the class and he liked that. They she had all the parents filling out papers and wanted to kids to sit on the carpet. He didn't want to go-so I didn't push him , when the teacher talked to him, he screamed. So finally he felt comfortable enough to sit on the edge and listened to her. Then it was time for the parents to go out into another room so the teachers could talk to them, and the kids were to make a art project. That's when all hell broke loose. He screamed that he didn't want me to leave him, even though I told him I was just going outside and I would be back. He cried so hard and it absolutely broke my heart. I finally left the room with him still hysterical and then I lost it. I cried and was so embarrassed, but everyone could hear him and they all were saying-"someones not happy" or "poor boy" and then they saw me. Some of the mother's gave me tissues and told me it was okay. But I still felt so stupid!! He did calm down and then they took them to the cafeteria for cookies and he was fine. He saw a friend from his old school and found out they will be on the same bus together. So we'll see how he does when I have to put him on the bus tomorrow morning. He does seem excited-but still scared. This is so much harder then I thought-I can't stand to see him so scared and upset!

Tomorrow........!!!!!!!

Is the day that Logan officially starts Kindergarten!!!!!!! He is only going for 2 hours and I will be with him, but still-I have such mixed feelings about it. I'm nervous, excited, scared and sad all at the same time. It seems like just yesterday he was born, and my life forever changed. He has been my baby, even after Alex was born, and we share such a special bond. 5 years has just flown by and although he has been in daycare since he was 2, this is different. This is the start of 13 years of school-and with every year, he'll get alittle older, wiser and independent. I worry so much that he won't have a positive experience since I know this will be terrifying for him. I'm sure it is for any Kindergartner, but for Logan-this will be especially hard. But this also might be just what he needs, and can get the help that the day cares just couldn't do. I have to stay strong and positive for him-and be his rock-which is going to be hard.

Wish me luck!!

My Brilliant Idea..............

After seeing the kids getting bored with their sand table, and all the sand pretty much gone, I had decided to fill it up with something else. Someone had suggested rice or beans, for the great textures. So I got a bunch of bags of of lentils and mini lima beans. The kids loved it, they thought it was like little rocks and played with it for a long time.

Well I forgot to put the lid on top a few days and one day Logan runs in and tells me-"Mommy look what happened!!"

Well at least now we've got a whole new type of play-Logan thinks they are going to grow into beanstalks!! Who knows-its kinda neat to see though!!!

OC Baby!!!

We went to Ocean City, MD for the weekend and it was great!! The weather was absolutely perfect, sunny and in the mid 80's. Justin's uncle brought his boat down and the house we were staying at, my SIL's is right on a canal, so Logan was in heaven, being able to fish any time he wanted. On Saturday, Logan and Justin with the guys went out on the boat, and I went with the girls and Alex to the beach. Alex had a great time, chasing the seagulls and jumping the waves. Then we went to the boardwalk and stayed there until midnight!! Alex had a late nap, so he was good. He loved the rides and all the action. Then on Sunday we went out on the boat and found a sandbar to anchor at. It was perfect for the kids-nice shallow water, with lots of little creatures and little waves. We were there all afternoon. Then we came home late last night. I really wish we could have stayed a few days longer. The kids were so good, and we all had a fun time. The best part was the fact that Justin was there with us. He really spent a lot of time with Logan and Alex. I think Alex must have said Daddy a thousand times!! We haven't done anything together as a family since all this started with his back. I was so giddy just seeing how the boys interacted with Justin and the joy it brought him. It was just what we needed to reconnect as a family.

My 3 boys on the boardwalk at midnight!!

I just LOVE this picture of Logan and Alex-brother fishing!

Logan was in heaven!Logan and Alex loved the rides-especially these motorcycles!!Is this boy adorable or what???Jumping waves on the sandbarMommy and Alex getting some sun

Catching hermit crabs

SOOOOO humiliating!!!

I take Alex to the grocery store all the time and he is always fine, he gets his piece of cheese, sings songs and talks to everyone. But today-oh today-some demon took over him!! He starts off by shouting "hi" to everyone who is in sight. That was cute, but then he decides he is going to scream at the top of his lungs, over and over again. I tried covering his mouth, which he just thought was too funny and kept doing it. I tried giving him his pacifier, singing songs with him, I even grabbed a bag of lollipops to give him. He ate the lollipop in silence, but as soon as it was done he started again. By this time people were really staring at me and I was getting really pissed at him. I couldn't take it anymore, so I stopped in the middle of my shopping and ran to the checkout counter. He kept doing it and I couldn't get out of there fast enough!!! I have NEVER had to do that, leave in the middle of something because of him-I think he just was full of energy and loved that it made me mad!! I am not taking him back there for a long time-I might even have to change grocery stores!!!!