Grateful

Actually grateful doesn't even begin to explain how I feel for what happened this weekend.

The company I work for has a Thanksgiving food drive every year, where they collect food and also have a huge raffle to raise money to buy items for families in need. We always try to pick families that are related in some way to CoreSource. Maybe a family member, or friend or even an employee who is in need. So last week my supervisor emailed me and asked me if I would mind if she put my name in the Thanksgiving basket. I said yes-thinking she was talking about the raffle. Well then she tells me to pick up the stuff on Friday the 21st and that it was anonymous and that no one would know that I was picking it up. So then I realized that she put my families name in to receive the basket. She knew that I have had a really bad year and with Justin not really working, we are very strapped for cash and thought we could use a little help with some food. I was told it would be dinner for a Thanksgiving dinner plus some extras. So I figured it would be a turkey, some stuffing, corn, cranberry sauce, pumpkin pie and maybe a few other things.

Well Friday I went up with the boys to my work after hours and when I walked into the room where the stuff was, my jaw dropped. There was an entire table full of bags, probably about 10 or so, with various different items-including milk, eggs, 2 loaves of bread, lots of cans of veggies, 2 boxes of Bisquick, tons of McCormick spices, mac n cheese, drink mixes, coffee, tea, toilet paper, paper towels, and tons of other things!! Logan was like-"Is all this for us, Mommy?"" I had tears on my eyes. To think that all these things were bought or donated to us, so that I could save money on my groceries, was overwhelming. I almost felt like I didn't deserve it, I mean there are so many people in this country who have it a lot worse then us, and I am usually the one who is giving, not receiving. I rally had a hard time not feeling guilty about it, until I realized that after everything I have been through this year, I have learned that some times you need help and its okay to accept it. I will be forever grateful to my co-workers for providing my family with much needed groceries and hope that as times get better for me, I will be able to do the same for another family one day.